Milestone

September is here.
Summer is gone.

The summer is over, and the speed for my improvement is gone forever. From me I am into the “slow” improved. The fast good and getting betters are not ever happening again.

It was good, I was in it with my mojo in the spring.


The work is good. Checking in at CRMK now and then. It will be good, one day I start to work, for real.

My language and my speak is getting better. Every day, actually.

Some things are really improved a lot! Some times I talk I don’t even think about it. That is a super mega very good thing to know!


The brain is there, and my energy is there… not.

Will continue be tired probably for months and years. There’s no speed fix.

My vacation was not what I expected. Instead of getting six weeks to fix my body, it only got worse and even more worse.

I read a bit better. But I miss it getter better faster… I mean I want to get better faster. Now.

I get tired fast. Too fast.

I don’t do shit with my wife for our home. That’s a suck and it makes me feel bad. I don’t want that of me.

2021 sucks.

I want to end it. Now.

Well not me, but the year.

I don’t want me to be back to where I was, but I want me to be in a year ahead, or perhaps two.

I want to be fixed, as much as I can get fixed, and want to be done.

2021 was really a suck.

Except the week in February.

We were in Hemavan.

I was skiing as the God.

I have worked for me for 6 months.

It’s getting enough.

But I only have to continue.

There is nothing else to do.


My right leg and foot, gets no better. Or perhaps a little little better. Or not.

My right hand is so much worse. It’s not a little worse or a bit worse.

It’s now a fraction of anything of being useful.

And I don’t know how to fix it.


Maybe I need the grow up, for real.

Maybe after I grow up and be 50 and all Happy Birthday and see the adult sense and mature and having all the time I need.

That’s when I fix me!

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