Milestone

September is here.
Summer is gone.

The summer is over, and the speed for my improvement is gone forever. From me I am into the “slow” improved. The fast good and getting betters are not ever happening again.

It was good, I was in it with my mojo in the spring.

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The work is good. Checking in at CRMK now and then. It will be good, one day I start to work, for real.

My language and my speak is getting better. Every day, actually.

Some things are really improved a lot! Some times I talk I don’t even think about it. That is a super mega very good thing to know!

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The brain is there, and my energy is there… not.

Will continue be tired probably for months and years. There’s no speed fix.

My vacation was not what I expected. Instead of getting six weeks to fix my body, it only got worse and even more worse.

I read a bit better. But I miss it getter better faster… I mean I want to get better faster. Now.

I get tired fast. Too fast.

I don’t do shit with my wife for our home. That’s a suck and it makes me feel bad. I don’t want that of me.

2021 sucks.

I want to end it. Now.

Well not me, but the year.

I don’t want me to be back to where I was, but I want me to be in a year ahead, or perhaps two.

I want to be fixed, as much as I can get fixed, and want to be done.

2021 was really a suck.

Except the week in February.

We were in Hemavan.

I was skiing as the God.

I have worked for me for 6 months.

It’s getting enough.

But I only have to continue.

There is nothing else to do.

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My right leg and foot, gets no better. Or perhaps a little little better. Or not.

My right hand is so much worse. It’s not a little worse or a bit worse.

It’s now a fraction of anything of being useful.

And I don’t know how to fix it.

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Maybe I need the grow up, for real.

Maybe after I grow up and be 50 and all Happy Birthday and see the adult sense and mature and having all the time I need.

That’s when I fix me!